~lost~

I'm absolutely feeling lost in my own world now. I haven been visiting a fren's blog for ages, and when I did today, I just realised, she's not even here anymore! Man, how detached can I be? Feel so guilty, altho for what I also wun know. We weren't the best frens, just that, there will always be something between us, a bond of which I myself wonders how it came about, how one ECA in a secondary school can bond you with a circle of people for years and years. It always awes me to think, that how we can drop communication with people and yet, always feel a strong bond with them. Some people say, that's frens. Truly?

It always makes me feel like an unworthy fren, whenever I realise that the people I feel bonded with has been experiencing so much, and I didn't bother to find out, until ages after. I always tell myself after that I want to be better, but it seems as tho it hasn't been working out. *feel like whacking myself*

It hurts to think that certain frens belong to certain stages of life. But yeah, I should grow up and stop being hung on that.

Anyway, whoever is out there, studying and pursuing what you want, god bless all of ya. And congrats to one who just told me she has found a new and rather good 'software'! (how's the 'hardware platform'? hee~) And again to all, have a splendid day ahead...Someone is thinking of you...