~ Guiltily Yours ~

You know what, recently, I've had a different guy for a boyfriend. Not physically different, he's still the same, whoever has seen him before. But mentally, I think I'm dating a different person, an advanced 2.0 version of dreamguy.exe.

I seriously have no idea what happened. Did a meteor crash into Singapore and I missed the action? I'm not implying that he was ever bad, I liked him a lot. But overnight, he just started improving on everything I ever had a grouse about. It's kinda scary.

Now, he's sensitive to things I say or even think. E.g. He anticipates what rubbish I would think of and selects the best way to tell me. Like yesterday, he had a conversation with his exgirlfriend. And though I was never worried about them getting back together before, my heart still managed to turn to stone when he very sweetly told me they 'talked'. But like he said, if he hadn't told me, it would have been worse. And we didn't end the conversation on an ugly note, because he did so well at making me comfortable and joked about stuff which he could do to make me feel safe, like sending their 'conversation' in an email for my perusal. I was pleasantly surprised by what he did. He never used to tell me things he was doing with his exgirlfriends, and after some time, I stopped being concerned to shelter myself from any possible pain.

He planned to give me a surprise too, when he went to Malaysia with his friends last week and wanted to place an order for the drama series I was hooked on. But I kinda managed to spoil it by asking too much. :p

And of course, there are the tiny things which I thought he didn't care about, or care enough to do after so long, like hugging me (which i always love, mind you, from all my friends, not just him) more, better goodbye pecks, and he even did some new stuff. *not telling you tho, but it's funny how I always get stunned by the new stuff, and react in a disappointing way like stoning / becoming speechless, simply because I really dunno how to react!*

There was another tiny thing he did which I could hardly wipe off my mind. We went to a mini-concert recently, and because the crowd was in front of me, I was trying out tiptoeing. Finally giving up, I stepped down to find myself stepping on his shoes. I thought I had accidentally stepped on him and gave an embarrassed 'sorry' but he said he was standing there precisely so I could step on his shoes for support.

And after all these, I'm still here wondering, what ever happened which made him change so much, in a night??? Two friends suggested it might be because he was guilty of something, but I talked to him, and I trust him. So that theory is out. I'm still feeling guilty I suspected him. Women never seem to be satisfied, do they? 

Man, I hope you guys are finding advanced versions too. *wink*