what the hello is wrong with my stupid head!

OKie, just dyed my hair myself and it's quite unbalanced. grr.... haha, okie, that happens now and then, so just forget about it. tried out purple red again cos refused to give up on the colour after failure last time. still the same. looks pretty dark to me.

anyway, the main pt is, is there something innately wrong with my stupid head or what. how come pms just surfaces every now and then when you are in a relationship, even when you are not supposed to be having menses soon. sometimes, i really wonder whether it is all worth it. i mean, i get all these when i am in a relationship. then why dun i just remain single and experience the pangs of loneliness now and then but at least, my happiness lies in my own hands?!

consecutively for two days, i ended phone calls with bf on unhappy notes. i dun understand why. i used to heck care about his past relationships, but nowadays, i just relish thinking how inferior i prob am as compared to them. why he can willingly do so much for them. and why i am not worth him doing so much for, or perhaps, not even worth his time. why do i spend so much time harping on this nowadays?!

dammit. i gotta get outta this pit. gonna fill my time as much as possible wiht whatever is possible so that i wun tink about this. it's just not worth it, if no one is gg to appreciate it.

*on a rush of anger, god knows with who*