Whirlwind days

Woohoo~ been like, four days since my last blog. But so much, too much has happened. I fell out of love, went back again and am trying to recollect my life as much as possible.

That must be a surprise to all who read my previous blog, that i actually fell out of love suddenly. Came as a super stunner for me too. But things are really complicated. Shant bother to explain.

Anyway, felt like writing this blog after reading something my friend sent me. It's a story on fate, and how a person reaps what he or she sows. Everything happens for a reason, and for the spiritually obsessed, we call it karma. But one thing to remember is that, karma comes in a big round, and there's not only bad karma. So dun worry too much about it.

Was thinking through about my relationship (ought to be scolded, when I should be studying instead of dwelling on such things) last night and felt very disconcerted over what happened. But this morning, my friend (the one who sent me the story) called and said I could have patched too rashly and when things are not settled, how can things improve? But all the same, his bottomline to me was: treasure your second chance.

I felt ridiculous. It sounds all too logical to treasure the second chance you hold since if you didn't care too much, you wouldn't have asked for it in the first place. But still, what happened cast a shadow over my emotions. Should I still give my all just like before? But it's not too fair. I gave, and i got much less than what i deserved back. Should I hold back my emotions and put in just as much as he does? So that I wont be hurt again?

After reading the story, somehow, my fren's words came back to me again. And this time, I think I have an answer to myself. If you want something, you have to put in effort. If you hold back, it will only end in a spiral of holding back emotions, and you will be somewhere even worse off than what you had started out with. Truly, second chances don't always come by. There is a reason why you asked for it in the first place and there must be something between you which allowed both to give each other this second opportunity. So give your best. There may not be a third chance. Dun live to regret later. Not everyone has the luck of trying again.