Wrong words hurt

i'm feeling terribly wrong for this world, for now. sometimes, you get stuck in a fix, in an anxiety to get what you think across so that the other person can understand you better or you can work better, and a sensitivity to try to get those ideas across using the right words. But no matter how careful you are or how many times you've thought over your speech, it seems to come out the wrong way, at least to the other person. and ouch, does that hurt him or her, and eventually you yourself in the end.

i just did that. and instead of making things better by making the other understand what you want or feel, there's prob more misunderstanding than ever. so what's the best way to work, then? if both fails. to communicate or not, it comes out the same way.

i think the working world is pretty scary. (or what they always say is the real world) everytime i take up a temp job or whatever, i learn to be a more hard-hearted and distrustful person. everytime i go back to school, i forget that hard-heartedness again. then the next time i get pushed out to this 'real' world again, i get upset again by the behaviour i see.

sometimes, it's not that people dun understand what you are gg through, but even if they do, they are hard hearted enough to pretend not to see, because hey, it's your work, you gotta finish it before we sob together.