pray for the dovey lovey

Not in a good mood today. started on my script and already facing a writer's block. woohoo~!

Anyway, they said that humans are the most ingrateful people on earth till they have lost their precious. (ok, i made that up) it's almost happening to me again, though i can't say i've lost anything cos i haven had it in the first place. the thing goes like this, was talking to my fren yesterday and got disappointed when i found that he wasn't really listening for that bit, cos i was asking him a question and he din ans, so i knew something was wrong (of course, the typing/fiddling noise in the background sorta gave it away too). It's not a big deal actually, but somehow, the disappointment just grew as our conversation lengthened and turned silent. In the end, we hung up on an unhappy note. the first time we ever did so, (there were crazy times, but really, not unhappy, but rather, ridiculous times, like the time he called my name wrongly. wasn't unhappy or angry then too, just a feeling of incredulity) perhaps.

Then i started to think, in a way, maybe it was really better that we din start at all, and perhaps, i should never get angry that way, because why should i? in the end, we still aren't anything but friends so i have no reason to get angry or disappointed that way. As i thought on, again, the fear crept up, the fear of becoming someone i dun like if i venture into a romantic relationship again. And the fear is already becoming half true when i aint even half in it. So, perhaps it's time to reflect and pull back again. Safety checks here and there, for self protection's sake.

Anyway, haha, the main topic is not this at all. As we talked about the magic show his company did, i was horrified to find that a dove had died for the magic show. Went like this: the magician had to make doves appear from his sleeves and so the doves were inside all the while. But when he magically made them appear and put them into the cage, one of the doves fell onto the floor. Cos it had DIED. i really think someone should sue the company for mistreat of animals. EVIL organisation.

So that's it. till later.....