here comes the fall

haha, jus read my friend's blog abt waiting for the 'fall' as you indulge in happiness. it's inevitable bah, but at least has a balance, so cant take everything too extreme. isnt that why we write blog? to pour it out so that you feel a kind of balance, justice to yourself again? haha

mmm, back from the makan trip and boy, haven been this full for a long long while. We booked a lorry and drovw around and ate so much... went to the bukit timah hawker centre, boon tong kee, geylang, and bedok. it was fun, eating whatever we have dreamt of for a while. felt very nice at the back of the lorry, cos it felt very comfortable without much between you and the surroundings as you drive past. like you are so so close to everything, and look at the starlit sky so clearly. i miss walking in ntu cos i always walked with a habit of looking at the sky occasionally. NTU is a wonderful place for startgazing becos it's so dark. but driving and looking at the sky as it moves is another peaceful pleasure.

But i didn't feel glad when i first came back from the trip. Because my very good friend was chiding me for being cruel to another good fren of mine. Somehow, i felt abit unjustified. He's half right, half-wrong though, but i guess it's second nature to be upset, so i wun try to reason it. So, right now, i'm in the mood of not 'troubling' my friends so much, such that they feel bothered by my constant whining. so unofficially, i'm in the mood of 'no contact'. unless you wanna call me out for shopping which i'm itching too much to go...

in conclusion, it's a day of mixed feelings. maybe it's my hormones playing up again. hmm, but it's natural to feel upset once in a while, so jus let it be.

feel that stel is feeling happier, even though haven been tokking much to her. :) just wan to say that, not all things are definite, so once you can rationalise things out, i guess it's easier to be happier, and i'm glad you are... and when you have that 'fall', we'll be there for you, not only for relationship whining sessions.

ash, haha, sigh, you innocent little fella! hmm, that last blog was not meant for you anyway, so of course you dun get it! hee~

okie, feeling better with s.h.e's songs playing, 'ting tian shi zai chang ge'... what a beautiful phrase....

*a little moody, a little bitter-sweet, a little afraid, a little yearning, a little 'ill' bottle*