as always, a very thin line to judge it all

Okie, firstly, thanks for all who worried about my affinity with buddha. Haha, i'm not starting my attachment for another week, so feel free to to call me out for a counselling session (or whining session~ haha). Mmm, I'm fine, really.

You noe what, I've been very frustrated recently over my dumb computer. somehow, after i moved back from hall to home, it cant seem to connect to anything, so luckily, my old laptop is still trying to show its worth by proving to me that it still works. I've simply tried everything my friends advised and still nothing works. *kicks the dumbo computer*

Other than that, been pretty fine tho life's bored without the chance to check what the rest of you guys are up to now and then. and i've been doing some self-reflection again (always happends when you are bored). So here i am, i was thinking, perhaps i am a bad girl after all. I mean, my friend told me not to be stuck between a couple and put myself in a difficult position. But it's really hard tryng to be friends with only one of them. So I'm now, sorta, keeping veyr in touch with the wrong half of the party and thinking whether i have let my other friends down. I really hope not. I really REALLY hope my principles stick to me.

Another ridiculous thought was practically the main reason why i wanted to write. Perhaps its the side effects of having people liking you, you tend to think about possible relationships. And tadaa~! I was thinking of falling in love. haha, shock? i guess to my close friends. Hmm, but thought about it logically, I found that I probably wont be able to carry on any relationships now. Which boyfriend could tolerate his girlfriend staying at home and refusing to go out with him? haha, reminds me of one of the signs when i broke up that time... perhaps like what me and stel always say, we become frightened. worried about how we would become during the relationship. (if this carries on, i think it's a self fulfilling prophecy for my nun-becoming destiny) enough of relationships. somehow, we keep tokking about them. how little life is about...

Attachment starts in another week. I'm looking forward to lotsa shopping and dates before them. :) tomoro there's a round-island makan trip for me and some hall buddies, hope everything goes well.

Actually, i think i'm pretty contented with my life now... like a typical singaporean, my contentment keeps me from taking any risks to ruin it, or to make it even better. Anyway, i wish the best for everyone and for their health. Love you guys!

*my little estatic bottle bubbling with loads to tell, yet frustrated at how little my dumbo computer can allow me to*